Run back to the start...

[by the female Bird]

The new Copeland album is out - produced by Aaron Sprinkle. It's really good. And I forgot about Aaron Sprinkle until now - he's really good too.


It's been a difficult journey lately. Life's been a floating bubble.

I think I've actually decided for myself that I don't need happiness or purpose... so why ask for it if I don't need it? As if I know what's best for myself. I realized recently that I've stopped asking God for anything... I've decided that realizing He is good is enough, and I need not see, comprehend or experience His goodness. What a sad cheat.

I'm starting to remember that He has given me desires, dreams, even passions... I've forgotten most of them because I've pushed them all far far away from my heart, but I believe that they will soon find me once again.

Not to be dramatic but... ever since the accident, I've felt more useless and purposeless than ever. I keep asking myself, "why would He save and preserve me? why didn't He take me home?" But why have I not been asking Him these questions? Why have I not been asking Him for guidance, for good, for provision, for joy?

To say I've become passive is a major understatement. Perhaps if I don't care about anything or anyone, nothing will ever disappoint (...and I will never disappoint). I haven't pursued anything. And I haven't turned around to see my own Pursuer... But I've been pursued.

Is it pride that keeps us from asking God for the abundance He promised?

Friendly Arctic Printing

We wanted to put a post up here to show you all the work we have been doing over the past few months...The picture above is an attempt at a panoramic shot of the print shop...After a few months of buying equipment, working on promotional materials, setting up all the book keeping and putting together our website we are just about ready to take on new customers. Our web address is www.friendlyarctic.com we would love to hear your feedback...We also want to ask that you all be praying for us as we are going out to find customers. This is a totally new thing for both of us and we're both a bit nervous about it. We have faith the the Lord will provide for us with the business, but it's still scary for us to be out on a limb waiting for things to come together.
-A-

on the mend...

Well it's certainly been an unusual week for us.

For those of you who don't already know - last Saturday Andy and I were horseback riding and the horse I was on reared, fell backwards and landed on top of me. He weighs somewhere between 1500-2000 lbs and yet I came out of it nothing more than a bruised kidney and a couple fractured ribs... oh, and I was very sore all over my body. But not paralyzed. Nothing major broken. And I'm alive.

All in all, I have to say that I'm absolutely blown away by God's miraculous mercy throughout all of this. I don't want to be dramatic about it, but I am acutely aware of how that accident could have ended up, and I am humbled by His gentle sparing of my life and health. Now that my general muscles have mostly healed, I am able to walk around my home with little more than chest pain. And now I'm able to bear the pain (which is SO much less than at the beginning) without taking those crazy narcotics I was on all week. So now I can move fairly easily AND think clearly without feeling like I'm laying in a boat on very tumultuous waters.

Can't say that I'm used to sitting on the couch all day every day (nor is Andy - who has been devotedly at my side, taking care of me like the grand husband that he is)... also cant say I'm used to taking any notice of my ribs in the least - now I'm constantly aware of them... but these are hardly large burdens to bare considering what happened.

So - in sum - I'm great! I'm alive (and again, not to be dramatic but, I'm unusually thankful to be alive). I'm walking (although much like a hobbly old lady - now I know what I have to look forward to). And I have fabulous odds for a perfect recovery (considering that Andy wont let me do anything for myself and my mother is constantly reminding me to "Rest, rest, rest!").

It's been an odd week, to be sure. But it's been a good one too.

Here's to breathing deeply without wincing, and many more adventures on horseback to come!